I'm sorry really

I'm truly sorry for what i did. I'm trying to ignore you because if the time comes where we should talk, I won't know what to say, I ran out of excuses and I don't want to lose you but I think I already have. What I did was not okay in whatever direction anyone looks at it from. But no matter what I say you just can see how badly i feel about it. I can't regret it because I can't regret life. Regret is what makes people live in the past and i don't want that for myself or anyone I know. Words can describe how much I want you back as a friend but I think it's not possible. I'm truly sorry. I just want my best-friend back.